alex's redefinition...

2010-10-01T18:03:00.005+06:30

Hey you freaked-out PMR candidates, just wanna say to ya'll :

"PMR IS E.A.S.Y!!!!"

Yours truly,

chill la, prayin for ya'll, faith in the Utmost is an act you'll never regret.

So, turn up the music, take down the exams. :) it's easy, you made it complicated to yourself.

haha, Godspeed to all!

Taste

2010-09-14T13:14:00.004+06:30

Whoa! If i don't say this now, the later hurry would be pointless,

Nostalgia creeps into my bones as i walk down this memory lane,

My blog is literally dead and breathless! (haha)

Don't take much pride in it, neither am i ashamed.

I'll make it up this time by cramming my head into this one post,

Since it has always been half and never whole,

However the past and present taste, i'll still host.

No idea, what i'm typing here but let's just let the story unfolds. :)

First and foremost, would be my praises to the Utmost.

The sweetness of my stroll with God so close,

To the bitterness of my "bodohness" at its most,

Love unconditional, to me still was His greatest boast.

As my sore and sour knees touch the ground each time in prayer,

Be it at 3 in the morning or whenever,

I simply acquire that my eyes be turned clearer,

Only to watch and see in the style of the Heavenly Father.

Did you know, that saltiness comes only so swiftly?

When we find it hard to take any step at all,

Your folks' voices, like the salty sea wind blow so calmly,

And like a flower bending in the breeze, we're led by that call.

Just got a joke from some goblok friend,

Stating that God forbids women to prepare bitter coffee.

When we were on the clueless road end,

He pointed out the book of He-Brews.

As lame as it is, my mind still wasn't present,

As i was burning up in the mixing spicy/hot atmosphere.

As pictures from afar complicates the heart's crescent,

As simple as it is, life is down here. :)

PS: Sorry wasted your time, hahahaha. Not funny, i know. my blog! peace!

2010-07-17T07:06:00.000+06:30

# 220 My Thoughts

2010-07-12T14:04:00.005+06:30

Congratulations Spain but ultimately to Germany. David Villa can never score, Torres can only be used as a scam with injury, ahhh..you have to watch to understand. It was the lousiest, most boring and most ridiculous match i've ever watched. Not to mention, the half an hour extra time to score a goal! AT THE 4th LAST MINUTE!
Just realized that Usher could've earned his ticket to hell simply by singing his latest song, "Oh My God". Charge? Exodus 20 ~ Do not use My Name in vain.
We are sore sinners.

# 219 Mr. Kacang

2010-07-09T13:56:00.002+06:30

You just need his face to laugh.

# 218 Waiting for Life

2010-06-20T16:02:00.005+06:30

Let's all be real man and silence the world for something, or in this case, someOne more worthy. :)

Let this always be the cry of my heart,

to witness Your love that lasts to the end.

Let me praise You even when i feel we're apart,

cos i know You still have me in Your hands.

Oh, how unworthy i am to demand with shouts,

What do i even deserve besides Your mercy?

I can only let my worship out,

Simply cos You're more than worthy.

You made this promise with me,

All i did was hold on to it with all my might.

I need strength, Father and love to empower me!

All i ever asked for was just to see You in Your light.

Jesus, i hold on, i wait. You show up.

PS: Happy Papa's day to all papas!

# 217 It's About Time

2010-06-16T20:34:00.002+06:30

I really need something to blog about!

haha.

Great, now i'm laughing without reason. :/

I know You're not far away.

# 216 Pathetic

2010-06-11T12:45:00.004+06:30

Praying and crying out to Him ONLY when you're gonna die? Where were you all the while? Pity power! What a ridicule! i mean, SERIOUSLY!

Flesh - 1

Spirit - 0

# 215 You're Real

2010-06-09T14:47:00.003+06:30

God, even if you don't drag me up the mountain,

I'll CLIMB that mountain just to be with You.

"Everything else is worthless" was what Paul said to the Philippians,

Grace, move our intimacy train

I wanna impersonate Joshua, that young Israelite,

Staying behind even when all others left.

With just the desire to see Your glorious light,

And submitting to being pure till death.

# 214 Amazing Ways

2010-06-08T13:28:00.002+06:30

This is pretty cool. :)

# 213 Overcome

2010-06-07T22:53:00.004+06:30

I can't believe i just wasted my day by doing something that i took my alliance away from.

STHOOOOPEET TEEVEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Ah, it's my fault anyways, remote control was in my hands. Pathetic. Just have to overcome that.

Don't worry, not an addict. Just can't believe the reality that i can't just grab a couple of seconds to lay back and relax with so many red-inked reminders of things to do everywhere. Just wanna *quote* cut them up into pieces and cook bak kut teh!

Beware of the clutches of the magic color box,

Who ensnares victims with many voices and sounds.

LG, Samsung and Bravia, they need to be blocked,

Yet, that wont be nice. Just turn it off, that will count.

Still.....deep down...television still rocks sometimes.

# 212 Replacement of mind

2010-05-24T15:24:00.008+06:30

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, you double-minded.

James

AD 49, Jerusalem

4:8

Search my heart for deceit and duplicity,

Nail to death the path of my carnal ways.

Into your courts, single-minded and a heart of purity,

I wanna see You face to face.

Lies say, a vacuum in my mind wins the battle,

The Truth says, my battle's not over.

Empower my salvation with fear as i tremble,

I hold on to You in combat now and forever.

I will remember the agony that You bore for me.

Even in Your prayer with sweat like blood dripping from You,

Even Your thoughts of Your sacrifice at Gethsamane,

Brings me to the ground. Forgive me for taking advantage of You.

That bitter cup that was for me,

Hung You between heaven and earth.

There is where I desire to be,

That i can see You with fear and love.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - Meditate on these things.

~Philippians 4:6-8

# 211 First Graders

2010-04-29T15:25:00.003+06:30

How a 6 year old can answer a question with such humor and sincerity?

When answering a test :

1. There are none so blind as Stevie Wonder

2. Laugh and the whole world laughs with you, cry and you have to blow your nose

3. Children should be seen, not spanked or grounded

By the way, while running my eyes over photos, i came across this

I just love it when pictures and photos can speak a thousand words and sometimes even more.

# 210 Contradict

2010-04-29T15:12:00.003+06:30

"Saving lives is my passion, bombing is my hobby. "

haha, my friend.

# 209 My Deal With Papa

2010-04-29T14:50:00.007+06:30

Alex : "Papa, i want more time to blog."

God : "........"

Alex : "Father, i wanna put Your Name in every blog post of mine."

God : "........"

Alex : "Yer, look at JoFan la. No fair wei."

God : "........"

Alex : "You hear me? I wanna speak for You."

God : *gives the "you-should-know-what-I'm-gonna-say" look*

Alex : "Ahhh! wait... sorry, i know. It's always You who speak through me, not me for You. Dang! *pace away and whisper to self* Common sense, Alex! Think twice!"

God : " *Giggles and speaks to self* haha, my boy. That's my boy. "

NOTE: This is just created based on the amusement of imagining an interesting topic of conversation with Him.

Jofan, no hard feelings kay? Just thought of your blog while typing. haha I'll practice my poems for your birthday kay? Just in case that doesn't suffice, teh ais without teh after service. :D

# 208 Before the Morning.

2010-04-23T16:06:00.004+06:30

The pain you are feeling,

it's just the dawn before the morning.

# 207 None of the Above

2010-04-23T12:30:00.005+06:30

I want :

New pair of shoes
Crazy books
New phone
Quoted shirts

I need :

None
Of
The
Above

I wanna give thanks and give it all instead.

# 206 As My Heart Checks My Song

2010-04-19T16:23:00.004+06:30

Contemporary Christian artists and bands owns! Sometimes pushing the "jumping and praising with the crowd" kind of atmosphere aside can really bring back the gravity that pulls you back to the down to earth feeling when the lyrics you sing are composed for a one-to-One moment.

iTunes radio was meant to be in this world.

I'll sing Hallelujah even when i lie on green plains,

I'll cry Hallelujah even when i climb with pain.

You are still worthy of all my praise.

# 205 The Light that came on Earth Day

2010-03-27T22:08:00.009+06:30

This is about Earth Day. I know it's a while ago, but i just need to share this.

There's something behind the reason why we're taught not to play with fire.

During Earth Hour tonight, a couple of decorative candles were lit up in my crib.

Then i realized one thing when staring at the fire. Actually, two.

One, we've been taught to simply be safe. Which is excellent, but being safe for the rest of our lives will bring us no where. When will you be able to start putting REAL hope into action? How in the affected-by-global-warming-world are you supposed to comprehend and see the REAL light of pain and trust?

Two, we've been taught so well about staying in our comfort zone. Where REAL faith does not breathe its existence. Nobody knew exactly how the moon was like until someone stood up to take in the unimaginable G-force challenge. Nuff said.

Wait, you know what, THREE. We've been seeing things but actually in real spiritual sense, we're not seeing anything at all. When they say that all creation points back to the Creator and speaks volume of praise as well as redefinition that our humanely physical eyes just needs brushing up to get the picture behind the picture. (i know, i don't even know what i'm saying)

Whilst i was staring at the small candle flame,

On a night that humans declared to be "Earth Day",

Words greater than heat danced out from the fire's fame.

It was the Light, speaking about the Truth, showing the Way.

When that happens, it is veli BOOMZ!

There is so much more behind the things we see.

# 204 So When IS The Time You Said You're Gonna Stand Up?

2010-03-20T20:52:00.003+06:30

Oh look!!! She's running 100 miles per hour!!!

........In the wrong direction.

Does anybody see her?

Can anybody see her?

She's on her way down, along with all the lost and lonely

Under the shadows of our arrogance and ignorance.

Because of the Hope that we tuck away.

# 203 From James

2010-03-19T16:00:00.003+06:30

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. - James 1:2-3

Something James told me before i was born. 2000 years back.

# 202 The Answers Are "YES"

2010-03-19T13:31:00.008+06:30

Ever felt that there are some things that you can't do on your own?

Ever experienced a time when it's all about work, files and folders?

Ever felt that you need help so much, that you wish for a clone?

Ever had everything under the sun burdening on your shoulder?

Ever been stuck at a point with various shoes to choose from?

Ever struggled decisions when you're just clouded and blind?

Ever traced back teachings from before, where you came from?

Ever chosen McD's over Subway, when you're out of your mind?

Ever hated certain actions that always come naturally at times?

Ever made the same foolish step that you sworn never to repeat?

Ever thought that you've just let go and given up on your climb?

Ever doubted what you believe and rather accept defeat?

Well, we're humans. I am. I need a Healer. We need a Healer.

You walk with me through fire. Heal all my disease.

I trust in You, I trust in You.

I believe You're my Healer,

I believe You are all i need

I believe You're my portion,

I believe You're more than enough for me.

Jesus You're all i need.

Nothing is impossible for You.

PS: I need to get myself some new t-shirts! *hint hint* Threadless is a great place to start. C:

# 201 When Least Expected

2010-03-18T23:06:00.002+06:30

As long as it's the cross that Christ wants us to bear, not those we put on ourselves.

- Au Yong Wai Nyan.

Yeap, this is him. No joke. :)

# 200 Just A Thought

2010-03-17T22:53:00.003+06:30

Things might just happen. Might just come true.

# 199 I Wanted This To be The # 200th POST!

2010-03-17T00:01:00.002+06:30

One of the many.

# 198 Look Back

2010-03-14T21:07:00.002+06:30

It's a walk in a maze at times,

When you're blinded by your own feelings.

Walking, care-free, just cos your step rhymes,

Unknowingly giving a specific one special treating.

# 197 Sudilah Aku

2010-03-12T16:29:00.007+06:30

Apa?! itu aku la,

dia bukan orang yang dia katakan itu.

Sigh...Tak apalah,

Dah tau akan ada orang yang akan ambil tempat aku.

Haha, what a joke.

It's all cool if you have a big heart and a Krispy Kreme doughnut in your hand.

# 196 Hesitated at 0116 hours

2010-03-12T15:55:00.009+06:30

Note to self: type it out larh.

# 195 I heart Details

2010-03-07T17:53:00.005+06:30

The education system should have detailed relevance in the scripting of the syllabus, especially of the Moral subject. I mean, who are they teaching with these text books?

Got to renew my lenses (not literally) everywhere i turn.

Switching new perspectives at every direction i see.

Perspectives of those I interact with, that, i need to learn.

Also, the heart and eyes of the One who made me.

Hey, look! that's something more D.E.T.A.I.L.E.D. and even more relevant to be put into black and white in our moral text books! woooooww....ahhhhmazing! haha

By walking the talk, i myself am no perfect man. Double cheers for that! I, myself have to change my perspectives, as i said earlier on, on the education department peeps and seeing through THEIR eyes instead. I guess and hope that they gave us 36 moral values to memorize word by word is truly for our better in life as well as for the nation. Bless their eyes for seeing things a little bit more on the adulthood stage of life for us. Also, maybe, just MAYBE they want us to exercise our left brain a lil more while memorizing. (Do we use the left or right brain to memorize?) See what i mean? haha

It's great from time to time to be realistic. :)

PS: kinda miss YC now at 7:44pm.

PPS: Where are all the people from Raub, Slim River mission trip? I m_ss you guys so so very much!!! yea, you don't get that so often from me. haha

# 194 When Pursuing Greater Things and Dreams

2010-03-05T22:25:00.003+06:30

Strumming the chords of greater sounds,

Kicks me off the equator of petty dreams.

Setting course to break new grounds,

Equipped with Starbucks that owns Coffee Beans!

# 193 We All Know The State of Economics Now

2010-02-26T20:01:00.003+06:30

When the only biggest angpau you got was RM20, you'll place Hari Raya on higher value, cancel CNY out of the bff-list, "like" all your Indian friends' comments on Facebook and love God even more EVEN if Christmas (which will never happen) fails you.

PS: CNY is still out of the Bff list until further notice next year. If you know what i mean.

# 192 Why Hollywood's No Longer My Hollywood.

2010-02-22T15:17:00.005+06:30

Love was with you when you took your first breath and will be with you till your last and for the rest of eternity. That's more than i need already. Overflowing. Let, love and Love flow out as an extension from Love Himself. Yea, Hollywood was right ONLY with one line saying, "Love can make you do crazy things". As much as that is true, i dare to say, that Hollywood never meant it when they say, "I'll die for you" in their movies. Not as much as how i would die EACH DAY for MY Love who first died for me. Go to the martyrs, the persecuted and the suffering, show to the world what it has been blinded away from.

PS: Hollywood, it's time to be convicted.

# 191 Beautiful Savior

2010-02-19T23:03:00.002+06:30

Knees to the earth, here I am.

# 181 I Know

2010-02-19T22:56:00.002+06:30

Everyday's a perfect day, filled with straight lines and stars aligned.

As long as i can see even without my eyes, i know my days are perfect and beautiful.

PS: Look Who created it.

# 180 "The Pictures Here Are Just For Fun..."

2010-02-19T22:41:00.004+06:30

Come to think of it, having a nice cup of tea while watching your family laugh and work together to beat the computer in a chess game is one heck of a great time. On top of that, it's on the LCD screen! On top of that top, (haha) you get to catch up with some non-biological siblings online too. Trying to avoid myself from mentioning names here in caution of these species getting all SS over the place. Responsibility to the society, i call it. haha

Until then, an exciting week awaits. With a message, an iPhone and a crack-a-licious something something....

School, wonder how it would feels like being back again. Seeking for a new perspective each day. One that will see no evil, but the good behind it. Lips shut, eyes intensified. It's my lenses that needs to be changed, not God's plans.

Yep, i know, it's been a while. Cheers!

# 179 A Little Recovery

2010-02-12T17:04:00.003+06:30

How I Met Your Mother.

You just won't get tired of it.

Barney: "Meet me at the bar in 15 minutes! ....and wear a SUIT!"

" The 'Have you met Ted?' game!"

Yeap, new year's gonna be awesome. the ph-ood...

# 178 Oh, I'm Letting Loose.

2010-02-12T16:33:00.004+06:30

Hollywood wants to make you think what love is.

I tell you, sometimes, even Discovery tells lies.

I put You in front of me, so everyone can see my Love.

I know I'll be alright as long as You be my guide, my Love.

Show me, Love,

That truly, You are the one and only Perfect Love.

Make me think about Your unthinkable sacrifice.

Only by RESISTING evil and putting You first will suffice.

Your thorns and nails,

GOD!!! break me as how You've broken Yourself for me!

How do i deserve You whom i hail?!

Of all, You've chosen me.

devil, touch me no more. FASTING in your face!

No where else, O Father.

# 177 A Date With Passion

2010-02-08T21:03:00.001+06:30

Dragging our steps to school,

Is surely something we despise to do.

Often, our senses desire other satisfactions, true?

“Anything, BUT school”, we choose.

We’re blinded by our own lenses!

Fooled by our own “know-it-all”-senses.

The news, the negative views we choose breathe in,

Brings life to a cursing critic from within.

It only takes a U-turn in our naïve perspectives.

May your virtual views hold you not as captives.

The point of you coming to class,

Is the point of this poem becoming a must.

On the way to school,

Mould a new passion each day in the bus,

Refresh your mind before it turns to dust.

Your soul will appreciate and assure you just.

Drowned yourself each day with your passion,

Till there is no space for any zero-valued addition.

If you have no clue why you’re even at this institution,

You’re wasting 5 years or 1825 days of your youth potion.

It’s not the day’s fault that you find it stuffed with boredom,

Truth be told, for it was Created in utter perfection.

PS: It’s you who lived it out with no passion.

# 176 Letter to Love Himself

2010-01-15T16:52:00.003+06:30

Lord, if it's pleasing in Your eyes,

Crush me, the pride and lies.

Strike me to my knees in humility,

Towards You, my God, and Your glory.

Slap me from the sin of my belittled faith in You.

Mold me worthy of the stand in persecution,

Just like those martyred for You.

Simply for Your Kingdom's extension.

Be my guide, Your will be done.

I surrender, now and forever.

I want no walls between me and You, Love.

# 175 Just My REAL Vacation

2009-12-29T17:00:00.007+06:30

People down south are so BIUDIFUL!!

Noticed that when having fish ball noodles at Yong Peng.

The noodles? It was little and i didn't feel full.

Despite the bumpy roads, Yong Peng is truly a charming land.

After hours down the freeway and police's roadblocks,

Our family entourage parked into a local church.

Welcomed by the humble pastor, a true shepherd of flocks.

Toured around the cozy church with 2 storehouses merged.

Picked up the orphans to Tesco for shopping.

Fed some fishes and turtles at a lake,

Can't imagine their joy caught on camera, touching.

Seems pretty cliche, i know, but truly it aint fake.

Scratching up some background stories of theirs,

And acknowledging their character.

Just like shredding droplets of past tears,

All while tossing bread into the water.

With airplanes flying over constantly,

However, didn't disturb the solitary scenery.

Maintaining its wondrous art and beauty,

For our "emo" atmosphere, haha, exclusively.

Then it was a Sunday that day after,

Went in early and sat in the air-conditioned service.

Legs crossed on a chair at a corner,

Awaiting the One through words journaled long before this.

Lunch outside the church after that peaceful Presence,

Patiently waited for the 12th hour to sms.

Those who faham, keep this as our secret essence,

It's for some to know and some to guess.

Soon after, went up north a little to another small town,

Kahang was the name. Yeap, pretty weird.

But it proved me wrong with what it's known for and crowned,

Was blown away for staying there and cheered.

An organic farm with creatures both tamed and wild,

Rabbits, ducks, swans, birds and cows roaming around.

The gentle play incorporated with strong wind but sometimes mild,

Hosting vast paddy fields and a still lake where local lotus were found.

Just beside the lake, still filled with mud and water, but more filthy,

Was the commando course snared with obstacles.

Set apart for us to challenge our strength and fight gravity,

Allen, of course, was the first to go and to tackle.

Before sun down, dad and I shared a small boat,

Rowed across the squarish lake, taking in nature.

Astounded by each sight of the breathtaking scenery while afloat.

Realized that God's work can't be fully videoed nor captured.

Then you know la,

Brown rice and fresh fish over the romantic sky with bright, blinking "flour".

8am sharp, (man this is taking forever!)

Caught my first fish, but it was young and small.

So i let it back for the a future traveler,

Followed by breakfast at a ranch-like-canteen-style hall.

To wrap it all up, I stepped on a set of bamboos,

Then with another bamboo in hand.

Embarked on the water and sailed through,

Rafted and chilled for hours before i hit land.

On the way back home,

Stopped by the famous Kluang station for tea-break.

I can't finish this on my own,

Haha, cos i know my vocabulary can't describe all the intake.

# 175 This Baby

2009-12-25T12:59:00.004+06:30

This Baby was God's own Son,
This Baby was like no one.
This Baby was "God with us",
This Baby was Jesus.

Merry Christmas to all! :)

# 174 Only He Knows Best

2009-12-23T17:09:00.001+06:30

Yesterday's today, Tomorrow's today.

Today's today.

Confused? yea, me too.

# 173 Throw It At Me

2009-12-22T21:38:00.003+06:30

Catching up and letting go is two tough things, oh God. haha

cheers to you, Jesus!

# 172 List of Birthday Gifts

2009-12-22T21:18:00.005+06:30

My granddad shares the same birthday as my dad and his twin (passed away a few days after birth).

Imagine the day my dad was born, what a birthday gift for my granddad.

My grandma was born on the 31st of December while my aunt has her birthday on the 1st of January.

Imagine the day my aunt was born, what a birthday gift for my grandma.

My Danish cousin came to earth on the 2nd of January, a day after my aunt's birthday.

Imagine the day my cousin was born, what a birthday gift for my aunt.

What a birthday gift. And I haven't even get myself started on Christmas gifts' list yet.

PS: I have a strange family. haha

# 171 Agape Love

2009-12-22T13:52:00.003+06:30

I honestly can't grab hold of the idea of anyone saying those 3 words at such an immature age. Don't get me wrong, i truly understand the naive and lustful nature of oneself getting involve and all that.

But, really... can it just slip out of your lips so easily? Would you sacrifice your everything or even when death comes, will you dare to say those 3 words again? Do you really mean it? Don't waste your love. Shed and share it somewhere else, somewhere or someone who truly is dying for it. What happened to greater things? haha, start thinking, mate.

Sometimes i trust it's better to listen to the weeping,

And not pour out your love that was Given, blindly.

Jesus goes to people who was in need and dying,

He even said that only the sick needs a doctor, not the healthy.

Words comes out of our lips so smoothly,

Without the knowledge of the works lusting from the body.

Weathered by emotions, clouded our eyes be.

Will you stop talking? Start speaking already.

If silence is golden, you just went bankrupt. Be a listener.

# 170 Who Am I Kidding..?

2009-12-21T17:54:00.005+06:30

A chicken in a duck in a turkey all in one and you'll get a

TURDUCKEN!

CHICDUCKEY!

I'm ready for Christmas now. But not THAT hyped either.

# 169 If Only

2009-12-21T17:29:00.006+06:30

I wanna believe that those words are true. Those words you know will only hurt you if it aint virtuous. Those words you understand could be risky to believe and go check it out yourself. Those words with so much of power on its surface but empty inside.

Words that say: "Teh ais only for RM1.00!"

Phrases such as: "Tandoori and roti nan at only RM5.00!"

Add ons like: "complimentary satays for dessert!"

PS: All these are metaphorically presented.

Only through actions can a person's true colors be portrayed, not words.

# 168 Gave Everything Up, Nothing to Lose

2009-12-20T21:00:00.005+06:30

When warned about the hostile land that i'm stepping in with death as a price to pay in order to get the lost found, I say:

"I died before i came here."

FUH!!!

# 167 Back to Laughter

2009-12-12T20:19:00.008+06:30

"No matter how hard i try, how much i deny it, pretend it is not true... at the end of the day, when no one is around, i believe... with every part of my heart... that stuff animals have feelings, and i make sure i don't hurt them.", quote Hailey Bell!

# 166 I Can

2009-12-12T19:37:00.003+06:30

Spent an afternoon calling up cancer patients. It was, i can't really describe the flickering of feelings and atmosphere of emotions. Therefore, indescribable.

Answers were rather pleasant and happy. I don't dare and am not in any position to judge whether the laughter i heard through the phone was sincere or not, but i clearly understand that i can't even feel good when talking to them. When running my eyes through their portfolio, I found the statement saying "third stage cancer" while listening to their voice. This man, this woman might be talking to the last person while on earth.

There was a this call. The son picked up and i talked a little. When i asked about his mother who was a cancer patient, there was a brief silence. I said "WAS" because she left a week ago. I can hear him holding back his cries and tears, trying to answer me.

"YOU GUYS SHOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING EARLIER! WHERE WERE YOU?!"

~ family member of a late cancer patient

"Oh, ayah sudah mati bulan April."

~a small boy, a son of a late cancer patient

Do something. Live.RevAmp Conference 09.

"My amount is little, but my support is sincere." ~ cancer donor A

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face and I...

Fix You ~ Coldplay

Yet, i did manage to describe it to the best of my words.

# 166 Coldplay's Getting Hot

2009-12-12T15:27:00.002+06:30

I'll burn and die in this atmosphere. Seriously, it's HOT!

But I'm okay. haha

Fix You ~Coldplay.

# 166 Cost Factor

2009-12-11T21:20:00.003+06:30

Walk and run to the beat of a different drummer. Even if there's no one else following. Even if I have to stand alone. Even if it costs everything.

He'll come bolting out of the sky on His white steed with His white garment dripping with blood. The blood of His enemy. I'll rather be persecuted and face sufferings now.

Cos that's just WOW!!!

# 165 Gravity Always Wins

2009-12-11T20:51:00.002+06:30

I don't mind anyone going the opposite current against me. But gravity, please work against me. Stay away from me.

~J. Mayer (paraphrased)

# 164 Nautical Nonsense

2009-12-10T17:12:00.002+06:30

Enough of watches and wristbands. I wanna feel my hands again. Dress codes aren't for me. We should all be ourselves.

Unless, you feel like superman and dressing up like him, i'll be honored to withdraw what i just stated. :D

# 164 Revolution

2009-12-08T12:18:00.003+06:30

Killing time with wrestling or racing games on the PS2 game console, going out for hawker food, swimming laps, supper at mamak, catching up over late night movies and back to square one. The revolution? kill me! haha

the only captivating part was the cheese nan and the enormous 'ais kacang'. Others are just plain lifeless. Who's having movie marathon? :)

I can't do this anymore. I need a cool drink and maybe, just maybe get McDs back into my life.

# 163 Here We Go Again

2009-12-04T21:50:00.002+06:30

Things-to-do before i get another subway sandwich:

Get myself right back on track.
Devotions 11pm every night.
Finish a book. ANY book.
Get my prayer list done and start the engine.
Revision.
Focus on others. It's christmas!
Be productive and get fat.

PS: McDs while getting things done aint a crime.

# 162 People We Need

2009-12-04T19:41:00.002+06:30

Chris: "We capture Osama bin Laden and kill him. Not rape him! That's just barbaric!"

Quote of the day, man.

# 161 Whilst renewing prayer list

2009-12-04T15:32:00.003+06:30

I realized that i've lost touch of so many things that were once at the tip of my fingers. But it has to be on black and white now. More detailed, focused and intimate.

oh, Subway's awesome. But McD rocks my taste buds too, sometimes. God will do the final judgement soon. haha

# 160 Funerals to Future

2009-12-03T14:36:00.004+06:30

Catching up on people and life itself. Restoration mou?

# 159 Transparent

2009-12-01T20:51:00.004+06:30

Proverbs 27:6

Wounds from a friend can be trusted,

but an enemy multiplies kisses.

Let not the minds of man and the schemes of Satan prevails from revealing what is true. Common words, "the TRUTH WILL set you free."

Live in freedom. Free from regrets, shame, lies, wrongdoings, mistakes, the past and all those food you ate at a stranger's kenduri or party.

all about you- hillsong

"all the walls are falling down"

# 158 emo flashbacks?

2009-11-30T21:08:00.002+06:30

i really need to get my fingers focused on those black and white.

# 157 Making the Headlines

2009-11-29T21:07:00.003+06:30

It's hilarious watching a boy cursing at Edward Cullen. Poor Cullie boy, always get cursed after making a movie. Sometimes even before he makes the cover. haha

YKPM peeps and slim river form 2s, awesome la you all.

# 156 Voyage de Post-Mission

2009-11-27T20:07:00.004+06:30

Sometimes, talks can really enlighten you from hibernating sleeps. ESPECIALLY, when you're in a car on the way down from up-north Ipoh. Screaming and shouting from all the crazy stories and facts. Now, i know why i should keep trips like these for 3 days max. It's a winter storage of "wahliao" stuffs built up just in a day.

Conscience came, and it was tough. Berns is and will always be right. What a night, 100 plus and tonnes of fresh air needed.

je t'aime? hmmm.... permettez-moi de penser

# 155 Hypothetically

2009-11-08T17:33:00.006+06:30

Ballen : "They're still kids."

Balex :"And you're still 13."

Youth aint wasted on the young.

Social Interview needs more creativity.

I hate car parks.

what a blog post revival.

# 153 Waiting For The World To Change

2009-10-08T22:49:00.003+06:30

i can turn that from black to white.

Just faith and a little creamer and you'll have a cup of white coffee.

# 152 Freedom calls

2009-10-07T17:54:00.005+06:30

You are my freedom.
Where would i be without You?
Healing from Your Kingdom.
What pain will i endure without You?

anyways, anyone wants coffee?

# 151 Hello Hurricane

2009-10-02T22:10:00.002+06:30

"If you're not crying why are you singing it?"
~Jon Foreman, Switchfoot.

These are the scars deep in your heart
This is the place where you were born
This is the hole where most of your soul comes ripping out
from the places you were torn.

# 150 My Last Words

2009-10-02T21:37:00.007+06:30

Losers are Red, Cheaters are Blue.

I'm a fan of none.

Repent, for the kingdom of ManU is at hand!

# 149 effs.

2009-09-27T18:11:00.003+06:30

Footsteps to Freedom from Fear through Faith.

# 148 Mission Exists cos Worship Doesn't

2009-09-27T15:53:00.002+06:30

the end is near!
a rapture there will be,
school's here!
the saints are weeping for me.

ah, at least i have a school to go to.

# 147 Of Jambus and all that.

2009-09-15T22:27:00.005+06:30

Brother was a so called the 'adorable' Mongolian kid before plastic surgery.

my dad's was a animal tamer in his past incarnated life. no kidding.Mom was just mom. All that adds up to the little family band.

Clearing out some stuff.

1. New Zealand or China or Sydney?

New Zealand scores.

2. Kiwi or a box?

better not choose any at the moment. B*BI kills ya know.

I'm coughing sick and sick of coughing.
this kinda reminds me of something that took place way back. haha

For the Audience of One. (that includes the rose apple above)

# 147 Ipoh's Insight

2009-08-30T11:28:00.004+06:30

I just realized that the elderly here in all the old town up north really take their food and meals seriously. Each munch and bites has its distinctive meaning captured by the savoring of the taste buds and the desperation of the saliva.
wait....
that didn't sound right. but yea, they rock!

# 146 shivers

2009-08-28T23:40:00.004+06:30

My toes! Can't feel them!
I need bubble tea, but where to find them?
Ahh, my head! i can't focus clearly,
That winter chill seriously made me blurry.

Hey, no worries...
The waves of warmth from the charcoal,
Will rise in a tsunami even to australia's south pole.
Truly, that warmth will have to reach in your veins,
Even if i have to burn down the whole place again.

For the Audience of One.

# 145 Martyrdom

2009-08-27T12:40:00.000+06:30

Armored with recklessness,
Trained to seek and destroy darkness.
A soldier of Christ's kingdom,
Ready to be martyred for others' freedom.Brought forth a sword to the neck,
Targeted point-blank, a gun at the back.
Drifted on the sea over sun and moon,
Pain and sleepless nights after departing the silver spoon.
Besides bringing a Bible and a knife, nothing,
Maybe just some survivor skills from scouting.
Then, ventured into the woods ready to be speared,
Climbing up to the mountain where Christ appeared.
Striking a flag stating His name on the top,
Even if arrows of unbelievers where to be shot.Persecuted by faith, challenged by belief,
At times i wonder: "where's the beef?",
Still, i gripped on so tight,
Knowing that it's is right.
Just like holding on to the things I find so dear,
Even if the package comes with pain and fear.

Man of my own.

# 144 Sthuppeed.

2009-08-27T12:39:00.002+06:30

I've heard stuff and gossips,
I know things and those lips.
Next time, think before you open them,
cos most of the time it's better to just zip em'.

# 143 Fruit Day

2009-08-27T12:20:00.002+06:30

Sometimes the world just amazes us.

# 142 Alex 101

2009-08-25T21:08:00.002+06:30

i've just found out that "Alex" actually means

"defender and helper".

nuff said.

# 141 Upon Request from an audience of one

2009-08-16T21:50:00.002+06:30

Lately, i really have nothing to blog about.
Even if i do, frankly, it's mostly junk.
I'm either lazy or worn out.
To be honest, blogging-wise, i've flunk.

6th August, Hiroshima was bombed!
6th August, Alex Ng was born!
This year, seems okay to be true.
Some strangers claimed to be "my friends" gave me no clue,
And almost threw me into a pool of flour, what a gift!
Not until Ivan and some others gave me a lift,
Went to fill my "bottomless pit" with Burger King's Whooper!
It was just satisfying only until we added another few MORE burgers.
3pm plus, if im not mistaken,
was when we watched G.I.Joe instead of The Taking of Felham.
Then 2 days later, crashed into Sean's mansion,
After munching down at Tony Roma's in the Gardens.
that was about 11pm actually,
There was enough time to be jolly.

Now who says it's too late for this? hmm? Audience of One? =)

# 140 Get it?

2009-07-30T14:39:00.002+06:30

I've seen love fail too many times.
But i know a love that doesn't even cost a dime.
Ya, it's immortal, actually, to be exact, Divine.
Unconditional, great, never-ending, that, i'm fine.

It even comes in a HUGE 1,400 pages guarantee card..or book.
The only one-of-a-kind guarantee that, by reading it, you'll get hook.
Forget about those useless romantic love novels,
Get the Book of Books, the awesome WAHLIAO! Bible.

# 139 Can't Hold These Back

2009-07-27T19:43:00.005+06:30

Australia 101.

impressive, aren't they?

to be continued....

# 138 Another of those stuff..

2009-07-25T21:33:00.003+06:30

never wanted to be into any other being,
not going to desire a single thing.
come and take that breath out of me,
pull me down with Your gravity.

don't let go of me!
it's here where i wanna be.
irreplaceable, is Your birth,
forever, i'll be drown in Your love.

# 137 Rap mou?

2009-07-24T22:00:00.004+06:30

Oh no!
Hell no!
I can't believe it's true!
That it's coming from you!

This is definitely worst than Osama bin Laden,
Cos it's Taiwanese dudes try to do rappin!

# 136 Little Ol' Ivan

2009-07-12T17:04:00.003+06:30

Ivan is so obsessed with Hawaiian ladies,
Always grabbing his opportunity to flirt.
Not absolutely sure why is he so racist,
I think it's probably the grass skirt.

# 135 Serious mou?

2009-07-10T20:34:00.004+06:30

It's time already, my literally, old macha and mate,
I know it's difficult to let go of this final breath,
This last gasp, just enjoy it, it's never too late.
Ya, ya..you see light..bla,bla,bla..that's death!

Snap out of it!
Take heed of my advice,
Just go with it!
I'm sure it'll be nice. (i think)

Have this ever flow in your brain juices?
How it's like when death sweeps away our existence.
Ya sure, death and its bitter paces,
But hey! it's a one in a lifetime experience!

hahahahah!

# 134 Heels and Whatnot

2009-07-09T14:58:00.000+06:30

Time wounds all heels.

# 133 I see some

2009-07-09T13:58:00.001+06:30

Any idea where i'm heading?

# 132 WaLiao!

2009-07-09T13:45:00.002+06:30

Movie : XXX XXX

Content Rating : RP-T (Ratings Pending to Teens)

# 131 Just Read lah!

2009-07-09T13:03:00.002+06:30

Had to see the doctor to check my breathing,
My heart suddenly stopped beating.
It's probably the dish that i had, disgusting,
Named :"priya and reena were kissing!".

Not yummy at all.

#130 lame aint my game

2009-07-04T20:58:00.002+06:30

what do you get when you offer a pessimist a can of coca-cola?

Coca-"No"la!

Fail in the degree for lame-ness' mastery.

# 129 Wild Side?

2009-06-28T20:13:00.001+06:30

1. Name : Alex Ng

2. Age : 16

3. Sex : Yes!

haha.

# 128 Twins Win

2009-06-26T17:47:00.004+06:30

X : "You're ugly!"

Y : "shut up! you're my twin! remember?"
PS: Megan Fox, undoubtedly H.A.W.T.!

# 127 Forget About What He Said.

2009-06-24T18:05:00.004+06:30

When with one's love, he walk on a late night street,
After a romantic meal of Bak Kut Teh with its heat.
Casting aside all those manly lusts for food,
Is easy when his crush carves deeply in his heart for good.Then comes the day where the long isle and ever-binding ring,
They live when the pianist brings the wedding sonata to a sing.
It's so sweet, don't you think?
Don't ask me, i find it gay and pink.
Decades went on without notice,
And love became the last thing to be practiced.
Their cologne that smells heavenly during their previous days,
Now, brings hell full of suspicions and nights of nagging to pay.
Wanna reconsider the person in your heart?
I suggest that you start to recalculate your love chart.
But, hey, don't take this personally,
I don't own any PhD in this, pfft! like obviously!"Look at the bright side!", they always say,
Can't sleep well, then go find her today!
I'm sure you can imagine what love brings and bears,
But i don't think we should go there.
(you know what i mean, haha)
forget what i said. Just be merry!

# 126 Tags again

2009-06-14T16:25:00.002+06:30

Rules:
*1. Those who get tagged must answer the question about themselves.
*2. At the end of the post, tag 10 people except the person who tagged you(tagger).
*3. Continue this game by sending to other people.(refer to rule No.2)

Time: 5.56pm
Name: Alex Ng
Age/Birthday: 6 Aug 1993
School: Section 5 High.

Elder sisters: anti-sister activist over here
Younger sisters: nah, we'll probably beat each other up.
Elder brothers: i don't remember. no?
Younger brothers: Yeah. just one, i'm cool with that

Favourite liquids[drinks]: teh ais etc, unlike blood-sucking edward cullen
Favourite consumables[food]: dude, have some respect for food and stop being buoys
Favourite place to sleep: toilet. BED lah, goblok!

Flying?: you wouldn't believe if i said yes, you saddist
Swimming/Diving?: yep baby!

How much friends in MSN?: how many lah! how 'much' -.- 175
Couple?: No, one will do just fine for me.
Loved ones?: don't you have friends and family, so bitter man you

Get kicked on the butt: it was se-weet!
Allergic?: nah, im mutual to all =)
Gastric?: nope

Whole fortune: fortune cookies? me like.
Age of marriage?: i can only marry once?! owh man!
Children wanted?: enough to build an empire of my own
Age of death?: 3000, i wanna see the world ends
Animals in house?: Allen, my pet brother.
Longest fingernail ever kept : never keep track of those petty stuff
Wanted birthday present : 30 burgers

Q: In your dream, a god tells you that you are a billionaire in your dream world and gives you a wish. What would you wish for?
A: I'll wish for God to play monopoly with me.

10 persons to tag :
Anyone. I'm to lazy to tag anyone.

# 125 love? plueh!

2009-06-07T20:48:00.005+06:30

I figured, everyone can love all they want,
But hey, to fall in love, that's just once.
The minute your love is lost,
It's the second your laugh comes last.

cut the crap, let's roll! woohoo!

yea, i agree, love is weird sometimes. haha

It's not the heart that makes the man,

It's the money in his hand.

It's not the emotions that form a guy,

It's the amount of ''roti" he buys.

# 124 Natural Response

2009-06-04T19:33:00.002+06:30

You jump,
I'll just watch.

# 123 Of Scary Thoughts

2009-06-02T21:55:00.003+06:30

Jogging pace after pace,
With sweat all over my face.
Around the park, i went a few turns,
Then a glimpse brings my soul to a burn.Kids at the playground, about a hand full,
Playing swings and slides, naturally playful.
Then, i fast-paced and pictured their future,
Trying to think who will the kids grow to be when their mature.

I'll pass the baton to you,
The thinking part, you go through.
Let me tell you, it aint easy,
cos it's FREAKING SCARY!!!

# 122 New Revelation

2009-06-01T09:49:00.002+06:30

Now, my life has a new meaning.

cos i had sushi for breakfast.

# 121 Deal With It

2009-06-01T00:19:00.002+06:30

I think i've wrote a post about anger in the past,
But i guess im not done with it, and now it's a must.
Was struck with a thought few seconds ago,
This time, i'm not gonna let it go.

Find it common to hear people say:
"Food always makes my day"?
Serve this to their 'digesting' bay,
And fainted, they'll lay.

Pets, love them, kiss them, hug them,
Take a look at these snapshots ladies and gentleman.

Even the aussies havta be their butlers and maids,
Am i not right, mate?

Hey, move the spotlight and focus here,
Here as in man who fight anger with drugs and beer.Well, im sorry, but you just havta deal with it,
Search for Mr. Hulk or beat it.

# 120 Same Boat

2009-06-01T00:16:00.003+06:30

you aint the only one who feels that the world is unfair.

# 119 Eye Contact, people!

2009-05-31T16:53:00.003+06:30

Once, they looked so deeply into each others eyes....
and one thought :

"God, save me!!!"