# 167 Back to Laughter

"No matter how hard i try, how much i deny it, pretend it is not true... at the end of the day, when no one is around, i believe... with every part of my heart... that stuff animals have feelings, and i make sure i don't hurt them.", quote Hailey Bell!

# 166 I Can

Spent an afternoon calling up cancer patients. It was, i can't really describe the flickering of feelings and atmosphere of emotions. Therefore, indescribable.

Answers were rather pleasant and happy. I don't dare and am not in any position to judge whether the laughter i heard through the phone was sincere or not, but i clearly understand that i can't even feel good when talking to them. When running my eyes through their portfolio, I found the statement saying "third stage cancer" while listening to their voice. This man, this woman might be talking to the last person while on earth.

There was a this call. The son picked up and i talked a little. When i asked about his mother who was a cancer patient, there was a brief silence. I said "WAS" because she left a week ago. I can hear him holding back his cries and tears, trying to answer me.

"YOU GUYS SHOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING EARLIER! WHERE WERE YOU?!"

~ family member of a late cancer patient

"Oh, ayah sudah mati bulan April."

~a small boy, a son of a late cancer patient

Do something. Live.RevAmp Conference 09.

"My amount is little, but my support is sincere." ~ cancer donor A

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face and I...

Fix You ~ Coldplay

Yet, i did manage to describe it to the best of my words.

# 166 Coldplay's Getting Hot

I'll burn and die in this atmosphere. Seriously, it's HOT!

But I'm okay. haha

Fix You ~Coldplay.

# 166 Cost Factor

Walk and run to the beat of a different drummer. Even if there's no one else following. Even if I have to stand alone. Even if it costs everything.

He'll come bolting out of the sky on His white steed with His white garment dripping with blood. The blood of His enemy. I'll rather be persecuted and face sufferings now.

Cos that's just WOW!!!

# 165 Gravity Always Wins

I don't mind anyone going the opposite current against me. But gravity, please work against me. Stay away from me.

~J. Mayer (paraphrased)

# 164 Nautical Nonsense

Enough of watches and wristbands. I wanna feel my hands again. Dress codes aren't for me. We should all be ourselves.

Unless, you feel like superman and dressing up like him, i'll be honored to withdraw what i just stated. :D

# 164 Revolution

Killing time with wrestling or racing games on the PS2 game console, going out for hawker food, swimming laps, supper at mamak, catching up over late night movies and back to square one. The revolution? kill me! haha

the only captivating part was the cheese nan and the enormous 'ais kacang'. Others are just plain lifeless. Who's having movie marathon? :)

I can't do this anymore. I need a cool drink and maybe, just maybe get McDs back into my life.

# 163 Here We Go Again

Things-to-do before i get another subway sandwich:

1. Get myself right back on track.
2. Devotions 11pm every night.
3. Finish a book. ANY book.
4. Get my prayer list done and start the engine.
5. Revision.
6. Focus on others. It's christmas!
7. Be productive and get fat.

PS: McDs while getting things done aint a crime.

# 162 People We Need

Chris: "We capture Osama bin Laden and kill him. Not rape him! That's just barbaric!"

Quote of the day, man.

# 161 Whilst renewing prayer list

I realized that i've lost touch of so many things that were once at the tip of my fingers. But it has to be on black and white now. More detailed, focused and intimate.

oh, Subway's awesome. But McD rocks my taste buds too, sometimes. God will do the final judgement soon. haha

# 160 Funerals to Future

Catching up on people and life itself. Restoration mou?

# 159 Transparent

Proverbs 27:6

Wounds from a friend can be trusted,

but an enemy multiplies kisses.

Let not the minds of man and the schemes of Satan prevails from revealing what is true. Common words, "the TRUTH WILL set you free."

Live in freedom. Free from regrets, shame, lies, wrongdoings, mistakes, the past and all those food you ate at a stranger's kenduri or party.

all about you- hillsong

"all the walls are falling down"

# 158 emo flashbacks?

i really need to get my fingers focused on those black and white.

# 157 Making the Headlines

It's hilarious watching a boy cursing at Edward Cullen. Poor Cullie boy, always get cursed after making a movie. Sometimes even before he makes the cover. haha

YKPM peeps and slim river form 2s, awesome la you all.

# 156 Voyage de Post-Mission

Sometimes, talks can really enlighten you from hibernating sleeps. ESPECIALLY, when you're in a car on the way down from up-north Ipoh. Screaming and shouting from all the crazy stories and facts. Now, i know why i should keep trips like these for 3 days max. It's a winter storage of "wahliao" stuffs built up just in a day.

Conscience came, and it was tough. Berns is and will always be right. What a night, 100 plus and tonnes of fresh air needed.

je t'aime? hmmm.... permettez-moi de penser

# 155 Hypothetically

Ballen : "They're still kids."

Balex :"And you're still 13."

Youth aint wasted on the young.

Social Interview needs more creativity.

I hate car parks.

what a blog post revival.

# 153 Waiting For The World To Change

i can turn that from black to white.

Just faith and a little creamer and you'll have a cup of white coffee.

# 152 Freedom calls

You are my freedom.
Where would i be without You?
Healing from Your Kingdom.
What pain will i endure without You?

anyways, anyone wants coffee?

# 151 Hello Hurricane

"If you're not crying why are you singing it?"
~Jon Foreman, Switchfoot.

These are the scars deep in your heart
This is the place where you were born
This is the hole where most of your soul comes ripping out
from the places you were torn.

# 150 My Last Words

Losers are Red, Cheaters are Blue.

I'm a fan of none.









Repent, for the kingdom of ManU is at hand!

# 149 effs.

Footsteps to Freedom from Fear through Faith.

# 148 Mission Exists cos Worship Doesn't

the end is near!
a rapture there will be,
school's here!
the saints are weeping for me.

ah, at least i have a school to go to.

# 147 Of Jambus and all that.

Brother was a so called the 'adorable' Mongolian kid before plastic surgery.

my dad's was a animal tamer in his past incarnated life. no kidding.Mom was just mom. All that adds up to the little family band.

Clearing out some stuff.

1. New Zealand or China or Sydney?

New Zealand scores.

2. Kiwi or a box?

better not choose any at the moment. B*BI kills ya know.

I'm coughing sick and sick of coughing.
this kinda reminds me of something that took place way back. haha


For the Audience of One. (that includes the rose apple above)

# 147 Ipoh's Insight

I just realized that the elderly here in all the old town up north really take their food and meals seriously. Each munch and bites has its distinctive meaning captured by the savoring of the taste buds and the desperation of the saliva.
wait....
that didn't sound right. but yea, they rock!

# 146 *shivers*

My toes! Can't feel them!
I need bubble tea, but where to find them?
Ahh, my head! i can't focus clearly,
That winter chill seriously made me blurry.



Hey, no worries...
The waves of warmth from the charcoal,
Will rise in a tsunami even to australia's south pole.
Truly, that warmth will have to reach in your veins,
Even if i have to burn down the whole place again.

For the Audience of One.

# 145 Martyrdom

Armored with recklessness,
Trained to seek and destroy darkness.
A soldier of Christ's kingdom,
Ready to be martyred for others' freedom.Brought forth a sword to the neck,
Targeted point-blank, a gun at the back.
Drifted on the sea over sun and moon,
Pain and sleepless nights after departing the silver spoon.
Besides bringing a Bible and a knife, nothing,
Maybe just some survivor skills from scouting.
Then, ventured into the woods ready to be speared,
Climbing up to the mountain where Christ appeared.
Striking a flag stating His name on the top,
Even if arrows of unbelievers where to be shot.Persecuted by faith, challenged by belief,
At times i wonder: "where's the beef?",
Still, i gripped on so tight,
Knowing that it's is right.
Just like holding on to the things I find so dear,
Even if the package comes with pain and fear.


Man of my own.

# 144 Sthuppeed.

I've heard stuff and gossips,
I know things and those lips.
Next time, think before you open them,
cos most of the time it's better to just zip em'.

# 143 Fruit Day

Sometimes the world just amazes us.

# 142 Alex 101

i've just found out that "Alex" actually means

"defender and helper".


nuff said.

# 141 Upon Request from an audience of one

Lately, i really have nothing to blog about.
Even if i do, frankly, it's mostly junk.
I'm either lazy or worn out.
To be honest, blogging-wise, i've flunk.

6th August, Hiroshima was bombed!
6th August, Alex Ng was born!
This year, seems okay to be true.
Some strangers claimed to be "my friends" gave me no clue,
And almost threw me into a pool of flour, what a gift!
Not until Ivan and some others gave me a lift,
Went to fill my "bottomless pit" with Burger King's Whooper!
It was just satisfying only until we added another few MORE burgers.
3pm plus, if im not mistaken,
was when we watched G.I.Joe instead of The Taking of Felham.
Then 2 days later, crashed into Sean's mansion,
After munching down at Tony Roma's in the Gardens.
that was about 11pm actually,
There was enough time to be jolly.

Now who says it's too late for this? hmm? Audience of One? =)