# 193 We All Know The State of Economics Now

When the only biggest angpau you got was RM20, you'll place Hari Raya on higher value, cancel CNY out of the bff-list, "like" all your Indian friends' comments on Facebook and love God even more EVEN if Christmas (which will never happen) fails you.

PS: CNY is still out of the Bff list until further notice next year. If you know what i mean.

# 192 Why Hollywood's No Longer My Hollywood.

Love was with you when you took your first breath and will be with you till your last and for the rest of eternity. That's more than i need already. Overflowing. Let, love and Love flow out as an extension from Love Himself. Yea, Hollywood was right ONLY with one line saying, "Love can make you do crazy things". As much as that is true, i dare to say, that Hollywood never meant it when they say, "I'll die for you" in their movies. Not as much as how i would die EACH DAY for MY Love who first died for me. Go to the martyrs, the persecuted and the suffering, show to the world what it has been blinded away from.

PS: Hollywood, it's time to be convicted.

# 191 Beautiful Savior

Knees to the earth, here I am.

# 181 I Know

Everyday's a perfect day, filled with straight lines and stars aligned.

As long as i can see even without my eyes, i know my days are perfect and beautiful.

PS: Look Who created it.

# 180 "The Pictures Here Are Just For Fun..."

Come to think of it, having a nice cup of tea while watching your family laugh and work together to beat the computer in a chess game is one heck of a great time. On top of that, it's on the LCD screen! On top of that top, (haha) you get to catch up with some non-biological siblings online too. Trying to avoid myself from mentioning names here in caution of these species getting all SS over the place. Responsibility to the society, i call it. haha

Until then, an exciting week awaits. With a message, an iPhone and a crack-a-licious something something....

School, wonder how it would feels like being back again. Seeking for a new perspective each day. One that will see no evil, but the good behind it. Lips shut, eyes intensified. It's my lenses that needs to be changed, not God's plans.

Yep, i know, it's been a while. Cheers!

# 179 A Little Recovery

How I Met Your Mother.

You just won't get tired of it.

Barney: "Meet me at the bar in 15 minutes! ....and wear a SUIT!"

" The 'Have you met Ted?' game!"

Yeap, new year's gonna be awesome. the ph-ood...

# 178 Oh, I'm Letting Loose.

Hollywood wants to make you think what love is.

I tell you, sometimes, even Discovery tells lies.

I put You in front of me, so everyone can see my Love.

I know I'll be alright as long as You be my guide, my Love.

Show me, Love,

That truly, You are the one and only Perfect Love.

Make me think about Your unthinkable sacrifice.

Only by RESISTING evil and putting You first will suffice.

Your thorns and nails,

GOD!!! break me as how You've broken Yourself for me!

How do i deserve You whom i hail?!

Of all, You've chosen me.

devil, touch me no more. FASTING in your face!

No where else, O Father.

# 177 A Date With Passion

Dragging our steps to school,

Is surely something we despise to do.

Often, our senses desire other satisfactions, true?

“Anything, BUT school”, we choose.

We’re blinded by our own lenses!

Fooled by our own “know-it-all”-senses.

The news, the negative views we choose breathe in,

Brings life to a cursing critic from within.

It only takes a U-turn in our naïve perspectives.

May your virtual views hold you not as captives.

The point of you coming to class,

Is the point of this poem becoming a must.

On the way to school,

Mould a new passion each day in the bus,

Refresh your mind before it turns to dust.

Your soul will appreciate and assure you just.

Drowned yourself each day with your passion,

Till there is no space for any zero-valued addition.

If you have no clue why you’re even at this institution,

You’re wasting 5 years or 1825 days of your youth potion.

It’s not the day’s fault that you find it stuffed with boredom,

Truth be told, for it was Created in utter perfection.

PS: It’s you who lived it out with no passion.

# 176 Letter to Love Himself

Lord, if it's pleasing in Your eyes,

Crush me, the pride and lies.

Strike me to my knees in humility,

Towards You, my God, and Your glory.

Slap me from the sin of my belittled faith in You.

Mold me worthy of the stand in persecution,

Just like those martyred for You.

Simply for Your Kingdom's extension.

Be my guide, Your will be done.

I surrender, now and forever.

I want no walls between me and You, Love.

# 175 Just My REAL Vacation

People down south are so BIUDIFUL!!

Noticed that when having fish ball noodles at Yong Peng.

The noodles? It was little and i didn't feel full.

Despite the bumpy roads, Yong Peng is truly a charming land.

After hours down the freeway and police's roadblocks,

Our family entourage parked into a local church.

Welcomed by the humble pastor, a true shepherd of flocks.

Toured around the cozy church with 2 storehouses merged.

Picked up the orphans to Tesco for shopping.

Fed some fishes and turtles at a lake,

Can't imagine their joy caught on camera, touching.

Seems pretty cliche, i know, but truly it aint fake.

Scratching up some background stories of theirs,

And acknowledging their character.

Just like shredding droplets of past tears,

All while tossing bread into the water.

With airplanes flying over constantly,

However, didn't disturb the solitary scenery.

Maintaining its wondrous art and beauty,

For our "emo" atmosphere, haha, exclusively.

Then it was a Sunday that day after,

Went in early and sat in the air-conditioned service.

Legs crossed on a chair at a corner,

Awaiting the One through words journaled long before this.

Lunch outside the church after that peaceful Presence,

Patiently waited for the 12th hour to sms.

Those who faham, keep this as our secret essence,

It's for some to know and some to guess.

Soon after, went up north a little to another small town,

Kahang was the name. Yeap, pretty weird.

But it proved me wrong with what it's known for and crowned,

Was blown away for staying there and cheered.

An organic farm with creatures both tamed and wild,

Rabbits, ducks, swans, birds and cows roaming around.

The gentle play incorporated with strong wind but sometimes mild,

Hosting vast paddy fields and a still lake where local lotus were found.

Just beside the lake, still filled with mud and water, but more filthy,

Was the commando course snared with obstacles.

Set apart for us to challenge our strength and fight gravity,

Allen, of course, was the first to go and to tackle.

Before sun down, dad and I shared a small boat,

Rowed across the squarish lake, taking in nature.

Astounded by each sight of the breathtaking scenery while afloat.

Realized that God's work can't be fully videoed nor captured.

Then you know la,

Brown rice and fresh fish over the romantic sky with bright, blinking "flour".

8am sharp, (man this is taking forever!)

Caught my first fish, but it was young and small.

So i let it back for the a future traveler,

Followed by breakfast at a ranch-like-canteen-style hall.

To wrap it all up, I stepped on a set of bamboos,

Then with another bamboo in hand.

Embarked on the water and sailed through,

Rafted and chilled for hours before i hit land.

On the way back home,

Stopped by the famous Kluang station for tea-break.

I can't finish this on my own,

Haha, cos i know my vocabulary can't describe all the intake.

# 175 This Baby

This Baby was God's own Son,
This Baby was like no one.
This Baby was "God with us",
This Baby was Jesus.

Merry Christmas to all! :)

# 174 Only He Knows Best

Yesterday's today, Tomorrow's today.

Today's today.

Confused? yea, me too.

# 173 Throw It At Me

Catching up and letting go is two tough things, oh God. haha

cheers to you, Jesus!

# 172 List of Birthday Gifts

My granddad shares the same birthday as my dad and his twin (passed away a few days after birth).

Imagine the day my dad was born, what a birthday gift for my granddad.

My grandma was born on the 31st of December while my aunt has her birthday on the 1st of January.

Imagine the day my aunt was born, what a birthday gift for my grandma.

My Danish cousin came to earth on the 2nd of January, a day after my aunt's birthday.

Imagine the day my cousin was born, what a birthday gift for my aunt.

What a birthday gift. And I haven't even get myself started on Christmas gifts' list yet.

PS: I have a strange family. haha

# 171 Agape Love

I honestly can't grab hold of the idea of anyone saying those 3 words at such an immature age. Don't get me wrong, i truly understand the naive and lustful nature of oneself getting involve and all that.

But, really... can it just slip out of your lips so easily? Would you sacrifice your everything or even when death comes, will you dare to say those 3 words again? Do you really mean it? Don't waste your love. Shed and share it somewhere else, somewhere or someone who truly is dying for it. What happened to greater things? haha, start thinking, mate.

Sometimes i trust it's better to listen to the weeping,

And not pour out your love that was Given, blindly.

Jesus goes to people who was in need and dying,

He even said that only the sick needs a doctor, not the healthy.

Words comes out of our lips so smoothly,

Without the knowledge of the works lusting from the body.

Weathered by emotions, clouded our eyes be.

Will you stop talking? Start speaking already.

If silence is golden, you just went bankrupt. Be a listener.

# 170 Who Am I Kidding..?

A chicken in a duck in a turkey all in one and you'll get a

TURDUCKEN!

or

CHICDUCKEY!

I'm ready for Christmas now. But not THAT hyped either.

# 169 If Only

I wanna believe that those words are true. Those words you know will only hurt you if it aint virtuous. Those words you understand could be risky to believe and go check it out yourself. Those words with so much of power on its surface but empty inside.

Words that say: "Teh ais only for RM1.00!"

Phrases such as: "Tandoori and roti nan at only RM5.00!"

Add ons like: "complimentary satays for dessert!"

PS: All these are metaphorically presented.

Only through actions can a person's true colors be portrayed, not words.

# 168 Gave Everything Up, Nothing to Lose

When warned about the hostile land that i'm stepping in with death as a price to pay in order to get the lost found, I say:

"I died before i came here."

FUH!!!

# 167 Back to Laughter

"No matter how hard i try, how much i deny it, pretend it is not true... at the end of the day, when no one is around, i believe... with every part of my heart... that stuff animals have feelings, and i make sure i don't hurt them.", quote Hailey Bell!

# 166 I Can

Spent an afternoon calling up cancer patients. It was, i can't really describe the flickering of feelings and atmosphere of emotions. Therefore, indescribable.

Answers were rather pleasant and happy. I don't dare and am not in any position to judge whether the laughter i heard through the phone was sincere or not, but i clearly understand that i can't even feel good when talking to them. When running my eyes through their portfolio, I found the statement saying "third stage cancer" while listening to their voice. This man, this woman might be talking to the last person while on earth.

There was a this call. The son picked up and i talked a little. When i asked about his mother who was a cancer patient, there was a brief silence. I said "WAS" because she left a week ago. I can hear him holding back his cries and tears, trying to answer me.

"YOU GUYS SHOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING EARLIER! WHERE WERE YOU?!"

~ family member of a late cancer patient

"Oh, ayah sudah mati bulan April."

~a small boy, a son of a late cancer patient

Do something. Live.RevAmp Conference 09.

"My amount is little, but my support is sincere." ~ cancer donor A

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face and I...

Fix You ~ Coldplay

Yet, i did manage to describe it to the best of my words.

# 166 Coldplay's Getting Hot

I'll burn and die in this atmosphere. Seriously, it's HOT!

But I'm okay. haha

Fix You ~Coldplay.

# 166 Cost Factor

Walk and run to the beat of a different drummer. Even if there's no one else following. Even if I have to stand alone. Even if it costs everything.

He'll come bolting out of the sky on His white steed with His white garment dripping with blood. The blood of His enemy. I'll rather be persecuted and face sufferings now.

Cos that's just WOW!!!

# 165 Gravity Always Wins

I don't mind anyone going the opposite current against me. But gravity, please work against me. Stay away from me.

~J. Mayer (paraphrased)

# 164 Nautical Nonsense

Enough of watches and wristbands. I wanna feel my hands again. Dress codes aren't for me. We should all be ourselves.

Unless, you feel like superman and dressing up like him, i'll be honored to withdraw what i just stated. :D

# 164 Revolution

Killing time with wrestling or racing games on the PS2 game console, going out for hawker food, swimming laps, supper at mamak, catching up over late night movies and back to square one. The revolution? kill me! haha

the only captivating part was the cheese nan and the enormous 'ais kacang'. Others are just plain lifeless. Who's having movie marathon? :)

I can't do this anymore. I need a cool drink and maybe, just maybe get McDs back into my life.

# 163 Here We Go Again

Things-to-do before i get another subway sandwich:

1. Get myself right back on track.
2. Devotions 11pm every night.
3. Finish a book. ANY book.
4. Get my prayer list done and start the engine.
5. Revision.
6. Focus on others. It's christmas!
7. Be productive and get fat.

PS: McDs while getting things done aint a crime.

# 162 People We Need

Chris: "We capture Osama bin Laden and kill him. Not rape him! That's just barbaric!"

Quote of the day, man.

# 161 Whilst renewing prayer list

I realized that i've lost touch of so many things that were once at the tip of my fingers. But it has to be on black and white now. More detailed, focused and intimate.

oh, Subway's awesome. But McD rocks my taste buds too, sometimes. God will do the final judgement soon. haha

# 160 Funerals to Future

Catching up on people and life itself. Restoration mou?

# 159 Transparent

Proverbs 27:6

Wounds from a friend can be trusted,

but an enemy multiplies kisses.

Let not the minds of man and the schemes of Satan prevails from revealing what is true. Common words, "the TRUTH WILL set you free."

Live in freedom. Free from regrets, shame, lies, wrongdoings, mistakes, the past and all those food you ate at a stranger's kenduri or party.

all about you- hillsong

"all the walls are falling down"