Hey you freaked-out PMR candidates, just wanna say to ya'll :

"PMR IS E.A.S.Y!!!!"

Yours truly,

:D

chill la, prayin for ya'll, faith in the Utmost is an act you'll never regret.

So, turn up the music, take down the exams. :) it's easy, you made it complicated to yourself.

haha, Godspeed to all!

Taste

Whoa! If i don't say this now, the later hurry would be pointless,

Nostalgia creeps into my bones as i walk down this memory lane,

My blog is literally dead and breathless! (haha)

Don't take much pride in it, neither am i ashamed.

I'll make it up this time by cramming my head into this one post,

Since it has always been half and never whole,

However the past and present taste, i'll still host.

No idea, what i'm typing here but let's just let the story unfolds. :)

First and foremost, would be my praises to the Utmost.

The sweetness of my stroll with God so close,

To the bitterness of my "bodohness" at its most,

Love unconditional, to me still was His greatest boast.

As my sore and sour knees touch the ground each time in prayer,

Be it at 3 in the morning or whenever,

I simply acquire that my eyes be turned clearer,

Only to watch and see in the style of the Heavenly Father.

Did you know, that saltiness comes only so swiftly?

When we find it hard to take any step at all,

Your folks' voices, like the salty sea wind blow so calmly,

And like a flower bending in the breeze, we're led by that call.

Just got a joke from some goblok friend,

Stating that God forbids women to prepare bitter coffee.

When we were on the clueless road end,

He pointed out the book of He-Brews.

As lame as it is, my mind still wasn't present,

As i was burning up in the mixing spicy/hot atmosphere.

As pictures from afar complicates the heart's crescent,

As simple as it is, life is down here. :)

PS: Sorry wasted your time, hahahaha. Not funny, i know. my blog! peace!

# 220 My Thoughts

1. Congratulations Spain but ultimately to Germany. David Villa can never score, Torres can only be used as a scam with injury, ahhh..you have to watch to understand. It was the lousiest, most boring and most ridiculous match i've ever watched. Not to mention, the half an hour extra time to score a goal! AT THE 4th LAST MINUTE!
2. Just realized that Usher could've earned his ticket to hell simply by singing his latest song, "Oh My God". Charge? Exodus 20 ~ Do not use My Name in vain.
3. We are sore sinners.

# 219 Mr. Kacang

You just need his face to laugh.

# 218 Waiting for Life

Let's all be real man and silence the world for something, or in this case, someOne more worthy. :)

Let this always be the cry of my heart,

to witness Your love that lasts to the end.

Let me praise You even when i feel we're apart,

cos i know You still have me in Your hands.

Oh, how unworthy i am to demand with shouts,

What do i even deserve besides Your mercy?

I can only let my worship out,

Simply cos You're more than worthy.

You made this promise with me,

All i did was hold on to it with all my might.

I need strength, Father and love to empower me!

All i ever asked for was just to see You in Your light.

Jesus, i hold on, i wait. You show up.

PS: Happy Papa's day to all papas!

# 217 It's About Time

I really need something to blog about!

haha.

Great, now i'm laughing without reason. :/

I know You're not far away.

# 216 Pathetic

Praying and crying out to Him ONLY when you're gonna die? Where were you all the while? Pity power! What a ridicule! i mean, SERIOUSLY!

Flesh - 1

Spirit - 0

# 215 You're Real

God, even if you don't drag me up the mountain,

I'll CLIMB that mountain just to be with You.

"Everything else is worthless" was what Paul said to the Philippians,

Grace, move our intimacy train

I wanna impersonate Joshua, that young Israelite,

Staying behind even when all others left.

With just the desire to see Your glorious light,

And submitting to being pure till death.

# 214 Amazing Ways

This is pretty cool. :)

# 213 Overcome

I can't believe i just wasted my day by doing something that i took my alliance away from.

STHOOOOPEET TEEVEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Ah, it's my fault anyways, remote control was in my hands. Pathetic. Just have to overcome that.

Don't worry, not an addict. Just can't believe the reality that i can't just grab a couple of seconds to lay back and relax with so many red-inked reminders of things to do everywhere. Just wanna *quote* cut them up into pieces and cook bak kut teh!

Beware of the clutches of the magic color box,

Who ensnares victims with many voices and sounds.

LG, Samsung and Bravia, they need to be blocked,

Yet, that wont be nice. Just turn it off, that will count.

Still.....deep down...television still rocks sometimes.

# 212 Replacement of mind

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, you double-minded.

James

AD 49, Jerusalem

4:8

Search my heart for deceit and duplicity,

Nail to death the path of my carnal ways.

Into your courts, single-minded and a heart of purity,

I wanna see You face to face.

Lies say, a vacuum in my mind wins the battle,

The Truth says, my battle's not over.

Empower my salvation with fear as i tremble,

I hold on to You in combat now and forever.

I will remember the agony that You bore for me.

Even in Your prayer with sweat like blood dripping from You,

Even Your thoughts of Your sacrifice at Gethsamane,

Brings me to the ground. Forgive me for taking advantage of You.

That bitter cup that was for me,

Hung You between heaven and earth.

There is where I desire to be,

That i can see You with fear and love.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - Meditate on these things.

~Philippians 4:6-8

# 211 First Graders

How a 6 year old can answer a question with such humor and sincerity?

When answering a test :

1. There are none so blind as Stevie Wonder

2. Laugh and the whole world laughs with you, cry and you have to blow your nose

3. Children should be seen, not spanked or grounded

By the way, while running my eyes over photos, i came across this

I just love it when pictures and photos can speak a thousand words and sometimes even more.

# 210 Contradict

"Saving lives is my passion, bombing is my hobby. "

haha, my friend.

# 209 My Deal With Papa

Alex : "Papa, i want more time to blog."

God : "........"

Alex : "Father, i wanna put Your Name in every blog post of mine."

God : "........"

Alex : "Yer, look at JoFan la. No fair wei."

God : "........"

Alex : "You hear me? I wanna speak for You."

God : *gives the "you-should-know-what-I'm-gonna-say" look*

Alex : "Ahhh! wait... sorry, i know. It's always You who speak through me, not me for You. Dang! *pace away and whisper to self* Common sense, Alex! Think twice!"

God : " *Giggles and speaks to self* haha, my boy. That's my boy. "

NOTE: This is just created based on the amusement of imagining an interesting topic of conversation with Him.

Jofan, no hard feelings kay? Just thought of your blog while typing. haha I'll practice my poems for your birthday kay? Just in case that doesn't suffice, teh ais without teh after service. :D

# 208 Before the Morning.

The pain you are feeling,

it's just the dawn before the morning.

# 207 None of the Above

I want :

1. New pair of shoes
2. Crazy books
3. New phone
4. Quoted shirts

I need :

1. None
2. Of
3. The
4. Above

I wanna give thanks and give it all instead.

# 206 As My Heart Checks My Song

Contemporary Christian artists and bands owns! Sometimes pushing the "jumping and praising with the crowd" kind of atmosphere aside can really bring back the gravity that pulls you back to the down to earth feeling when the lyrics you sing are composed for a one-to-One moment.

iTunes radio was meant to be in this world.

I'll sing Hallelujah even when i lie on green plains,

I'll cry Hallelujah even when i climb with pain.

You are still worthy of all my praise.

# 205 The Light that came on Earth Day

This is about Earth Day. I know it's a while ago, but i just need to share this.

There's something behind the reason why we're taught not to play with fire.

During Earth Hour tonight, a couple of decorative candles were lit up in my crib.

Then i realized one thing when staring at the fire. Actually, two.

One, we've been taught to simply be safe. Which is excellent, but being safe for the rest of our lives will bring us no where. When will you be able to start putting REAL hope into action? How in the affected-by-global-warming-world are you supposed to comprehend and see the REAL light of pain and trust?

Two, we've been taught so well about staying in our comfort zone. Where REAL faith does not breathe its existence. Nobody knew exactly how the moon was like until someone stood up to take in the unimaginable G-force challenge. Nuff said.

Wait, you know what, THREE. We've been seeing things but actually in real spiritual sense, we're not seeing anything at all. When they say that all creation points back to the Creator and speaks volume of praise as well as redefinition that our humanely physical eyes just needs brushing up to get the picture behind the picture. (i know, i don't even know what i'm saying)

Whilst i was staring at the small candle flame,

On a night that humans declared to be "Earth Day",

Words greater than heat danced out from the fire's fame.

It was the Light, speaking about the Truth, showing the Way.

When that happens, it is veli BOOMZ!

There is so much more behind the things we see.

# 204 So When IS The Time You Said You're Gonna Stand Up?

Oh look!!! She's running 100 miles per hour!!!

........In the wrong direction.

Does anybody see her?

Can anybody see her?

She's on her way down, along with all the lost and lonely

Under the shadows of our arrogance and ignorance.

Because of the Hope that we tuck away.

# 203 From James

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. - James 1:2-3

Something James told me before i was born. 2000 years back.

# 202 The Answers Are "YES"

Ever felt that there are some things that you can't do on your own?

Ever experienced a time when it's all about work, files and folders?

Ever felt that you need help so much, that you wish for a clone?

Ever had everything under the sun burdening on your shoulder?

Ever been stuck at a point with various shoes to choose from?

Ever struggled decisions when you're just clouded and blind?

Ever traced back teachings from before, where you came from?

Ever chosen McD's over Subway, when you're out of your mind?

Ever hated certain actions that always come naturally at times?

Ever made the same foolish step that you sworn never to repeat?

Ever thought that you've just let go and given up on your climb?

Ever doubted what you believe and rather accept defeat?

Well, we're humans. I am. I need a Healer. We need a Healer.

You walk with me through fire. Heal all my disease.

I trust in You, I trust in You.

I believe You're my Healer,

I believe You are all i need

I believe You're my portion,

I believe You're more than enough for me.

Jesus You're all i need.

Nothing is impossible for You.

PS: I need to get myself some new t-shirts! *hint hint* Threadless is a great place to start. C:

# 201 When Least Expected

As long as it's the cross that Christ wants us to bear, not those we put on ourselves.

- Au Yong Wai Nyan.

Yeap, this is him. No joke. :)

# 200 Just A Thought

Things might just happen. Might just come true.

# 199 I Wanted This To be The # 200th POST!

One of the many.

# 198 Look Back

It's a walk in a maze at times,

When you're blinded by your own feelings.

Walking, care-free, just cos your step rhymes,

Unknowingly giving a specific one special treating.

# 197 Sudilah Aku

Apa?! itu aku la,

dia bukan orang yang dia katakan itu.

Sigh...Tak apalah,

Dah tau akan ada orang yang akan ambil tempat aku.

Haha, what a joke.

It's all cool if you have a big heart and a Krispy Kreme doughnut in your hand.

# 196 Hesitated at 0116 hours

Note to self: type it out larh.

# 195 I *heart* Details

The education system should have detailed relevance in the scripting of the syllabus, especially of the Moral subject. I mean, who are they teaching with these text books?

Got to renew my lenses (not literally) everywhere i turn.

Switching new perspectives at every direction i see.

Perspectives of those I interact with, that, i need to learn.

Also, the heart and eyes of the One who made me.

Hey, look! that's something more D.E.T.A.I.L.E.D. and even more relevant to be put into black and white in our moral text books! woooooww....ahhhhmazing! haha

By walking the talk, i myself am no perfect man. Double cheers for that! I, myself have to change my perspectives, as i said earlier on, on the education department peeps and seeing through THEIR eyes instead. I guess and hope that they gave us 36 moral values to memorize word by word is truly for our better in life as well as for the nation. Bless their eyes for seeing things a little bit more on the adulthood stage of life for us. Also, maybe, just MAYBE they want us to exercise our left brain a lil more while memorizing. (Do we use the left or right brain to memorize?) See what i mean? haha

It's great from time to time to be realistic. :)

PS: kinda miss YC now at 7:44pm.

PPS: Where are all the people from Raub, Slim River mission trip? I m_ss you guys so so very much!!! yea, you don't get that so often from me. haha

# 194 When Pursuing Greater Things and Dreams

Strumming the chords of greater sounds,

Kicks me off the equator of petty dreams.

Setting course to break new grounds,

Equipped with Starbucks that owns Coffee Beans!

# 193 We All Know The State of Economics Now

When the only biggest angpau you got was RM20, you'll place Hari Raya on higher value, cancel CNY out of the bff-list, "like" all your Indian friends' comments on Facebook and love God even more EVEN if Christmas (which will never happen) fails you.

PS: CNY is still out of the Bff list until further notice next year. If you know what i mean.

# 192 Why Hollywood's No Longer My Hollywood.

Love was with you when you took your first breath and will be with you till your last and for the rest of eternity. That's more than i need already. Overflowing. Let, love and Love flow out as an extension from Love Himself. Yea, Hollywood was right ONLY with one line saying, "Love can make you do crazy things". As much as that is true, i dare to say, that Hollywood never meant it when they say, "I'll die for you" in their movies. Not as much as how i would die EACH DAY for MY Love who first died for me. Go to the martyrs, the persecuted and the suffering, show to the world what it has been blinded away from.

PS: Hollywood, it's time to be convicted.

# 191 Beautiful Savior

Knees to the earth, here I am.

# 181 I Know

Everyday's a perfect day, filled with straight lines and stars aligned.

As long as i can see even without my eyes, i know my days are perfect and beautiful.

PS: Look Who created it.

# 180 "The Pictures Here Are Just For Fun..."

Come to think of it, having a nice cup of tea while watching your family laugh and work together to beat the computer in a chess game is one heck of a great time. On top of that, it's on the LCD screen! On top of that top, (haha) you get to catch up with some non-biological siblings online too. Trying to avoid myself from mentioning names here in caution of these species getting all SS over the place. Responsibility to the society, i call it. haha

Until then, an exciting week awaits. With a message, an iPhone and a crack-a-licious something something....

School, wonder how it would feels like being back again. Seeking for a new perspective each day. One that will see no evil, but the good behind it. Lips shut, eyes intensified. It's my lenses that needs to be changed, not God's plans.

Yep, i know, it's been a while. Cheers!

# 179 A Little Recovery

How I Met Your Mother.

You just won't get tired of it.

Barney: "Meet me at the bar in 15 minutes! ....and wear a SUIT!"

" The 'Have you met Ted?' game!"

Yeap, new year's gonna be awesome. the ph-ood...

# 178 Oh, I'm Letting Loose.

Hollywood wants to make you think what love is.

I tell you, sometimes, even Discovery tells lies.

I put You in front of me, so everyone can see my Love.

I know I'll be alright as long as You be my guide, my Love.

Show me, Love,

That truly, You are the one and only Perfect Love.

Make me think about Your unthinkable sacrifice.

Only by RESISTING evil and putting You first will suffice.

Your thorns and nails,

GOD!!! break me as how You've broken Yourself for me!

How do i deserve You whom i hail?!

Of all, You've chosen me.

devil, touch me no more. FASTING in your face!

No where else, O Father.

# 177 A Date With Passion

Dragging our steps to school,

Is surely something we despise to do.

Often, our senses desire other satisfactions, true?

“Anything, BUT school”, we choose.

We’re blinded by our own lenses!

Fooled by our own “know-it-all”-senses.

The news, the negative views we choose breathe in,

Brings life to a cursing critic from within.

It only takes a U-turn in our naïve perspectives.

May your virtual views hold you not as captives.

The point of you coming to class,

Is the point of this poem becoming a must.

On the way to school,

Mould a new passion each day in the bus,

Refresh your mind before it turns to dust.

Your soul will appreciate and assure you just.

Drowned yourself each day with your passion,

Till there is no space for any zero-valued addition.

If you have no clue why you’re even at this institution,

You’re wasting 5 years or 1825 days of your youth potion.

It’s not the day’s fault that you find it stuffed with boredom,

Truth be told, for it was Created in utter perfection.

PS: It’s you who lived it out with no passion.

# 176 Letter to Love Himself

Lord, if it's pleasing in Your eyes,

Crush me, the pride and lies.

Strike me to my knees in humility,

Towards You, my God, and Your glory.

Slap me from the sin of my belittled faith in You.

Mold me worthy of the stand in persecution,

Just like those martyred for You.

Simply for Your Kingdom's extension.

Be my guide, Your will be done.

I surrender, now and forever.

I want no walls between me and You, Love.